It's been one hell of a year. Where do I even begin? I've done so many things, I've made so many friends, I've gained so many memories that I will never forget. I went camping for the first time, I had chicken pot pie for the first time ... I fell in love for the first time and I had my heart broken for the first time. I don't want to say this whole year's been solely about that -- that'd be giving it way too much credit -- but it was definitely a huge story arc in this chapter of my life. In this blog you saw the beginnings and the development of a relationship and then the end of something that grew to be very important to me. You know in eighth grade, Mrs. Miller asked us whether we believed it was better to have loved and lost or to have never loved at all. I picked the latter. I'm not quite sure if I've completely changed my mind yet. I feel like I've lost a lot in the past few months. I lost my best friend and he moved right on without giving a damn. But would it be too cliche to say I feel I've grown a little stronger because of it? You learn to pick up the pieces of your life that are still left in the aftermath and then you realize the sun will still rise the next day. "Just get back up when it knocks you down." There's this little saying that's been circulating the internet for the past few years that goes like this:
"There comes a time in your life when you realize who will always matter, who does matter, and who never did. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."
I'm so thankful to be where I am now. It's no secret that I'm not exactly compatible with change, but I have such a great mix of past meets present right now. I have so many great friends I can turn to whenever I'm feeling homesick or sad, meanwhile I'm in a brand new, invigorating environment meeting all of these amazing new people. There's this other saying that I found a while ago that I turn to all the time for comfort:
"When you come to the edge of all that you know, you must believe one of two things: either there will be ground to stand on, or you will be given wings to fly."
You know, I was talking to Billy a while ago. And I said that I just wanted to know if there was something better out there. I just wanted to know if I was going through all this crap right now for a reason. That I just wanted to know how this story ends. And he said it ends with "And she lived happily ever after." And you know what? I really like that ending. I'm excited for the rest of my life; I really am. ♥
[ ROUND THREE! ]
"There comes a time in your life when you realize who will always matter, who does matter, and who never did. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future."
I'm so thankful to be where I am now. It's no secret that I'm not exactly compatible with change, but I have such a great mix of past meets present right now. I have so many great friends I can turn to whenever I'm feeling homesick or sad, meanwhile I'm in a brand new, invigorating environment meeting all of these amazing new people. There's this other saying that I found a while ago that I turn to all the time for comfort:
"When you come to the edge of all that you know, you must believe one of two things: either there will be ground to stand on, or you will be given wings to fly."
You know, I was talking to Billy a while ago. And I said that I just wanted to know if there was something better out there. I just wanted to know if I was going through all this crap right now for a reason. That I just wanted to know how this story ends. And he said it ends with "And she lived happily ever after." And you know what? I really like that ending. I'm excited for the rest of my life; I really am. ♥
[ ROUND THREE! ]
