Do you want to know a secret? I still want to be with him. How pathetic, right, hahah. But the funny thing is that I feel so much better admitting it. It's like I can breathe again now. (:
Prof. Hall: You love his Jew `fro.Hahaha. We went to music today, and I said I wanted to find the little kid again, and Ken just found us some seats on the right, and then Andy spotted him! And Ken was like telling us how stupid we were being cuhs he's still just a kid, and I was like whatever, let's go Andy! And then John was like, "I want in on this too!" and went to sit next to him with us hahaha. And then Ken had to follow us, except there were only three seats in a row, so Ken had to sit two seats over from John hahaha. xD Anyhow, Moshe remembered us! ... Even if he didn't remember our names hahaha whatever. The guys really hit it off with him, and they were throwing imaginary grenades at each other before class LOL (what do you expect, he still is a 12 year old after all ... maybe that applies for all three of them hahaha). Andy was being a creep and I made him sound even creepier when I was telling Ken about it afterwards and made it sound like he was hitting on the kid HAHAHA. ♥
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So John got a hold of my recorder lol.
We went to Jamba Juice after class, and I thought we were gonna meet Fatemah and Rukhsar for lunch, but they brought their own food and started eating it already. |: So Ken and I just grabbed some food at De Neve lol. We met them in the plaza afterwards though.
Fatemah had some club meeting so Rukhsar and I just headed back to my room and talked. And then Fatemah came. And then Rukhsar had a class so she left. So Fatemah and I just hung out lol. It was really nice to see them again though; I haven't seen them since we graduated!
After they left I tried doing some homework, and I just felt so suffocated and lonely and bored and unproductive and everything being in the quiet room by myself. Which is when I made that little confession to myself that I have at the beginning of the post. It's funny, I haven't even been able to admit that to myself until now, but it just kind of felt like a huge weight off my chest once I put it out there. And I don't know if it actually made things any better -- maybe it just made it worse -- but one step at a time, right?I turned on the tv and The Office was on, and I was finally comfortable enough to settle down and get some homework done without feeling suffocated.
Ken and Liz went to this Japanese club thing (NSU or something), and I met up with them for dinner, and also met some of their other Japanese friends lol. One of them was Yui, and Yui, Liz, and I were heading up to Hitch because they wanted to see my room, and we walked into the Hitch grounds, and there were these two raccoons by a tree! And it seemed so unreal because I've never seen an actual raccoon before! Anyhow, I tried taking pictures of them, but my flash made their eyes look like they were glowing hahaha. Creepy!
I GOT THE JOB. OH MY GOD. I'm so happy right now! I got a job! And I get to use Photoshop! Granted they told me yesterday that there'd be little creativity involved, but still! And it pays $12.58 an hour, holy shit (or at least according to the work study site it does)! Things are finally starting to come back together for me. This is the start of many good things to come; I'm sure of it. (`:
