Did some shopping with Mom today; we went to Del Amo, initially because she promised to buy me clothes in exchange for subbing for Andy last week. But all we ended up getting were some new flipflops and hand soaps lol. We went to Forever 21 and I saw that jacket that Tiffany tried on at the Cerritos mall and decided against buying because of the price, and got it for her as a late birthday present. Mom wouldn't pay for that one lol. We also stopped by Costco, Sams, and the optometrist's to pick up my contacts.--
I was talking to Ricardo at work today, and I guess I never told him about the break up, and so he was asking me about what happened. And it was so weird; at one point he laughed and said "Omg, that is textbook!" and even added that he did the exact same thing once. Like, at some parts he was practically telling me my own story!
Him: Awh, yeah you should get back together with him.
Me: What? (I think he thought it just happened cuhs when I told him it was a while ago he was like ohnvm.)
Him: Yeah because if you don't, you'll always wonder if it was the right decision. And then when you guys break up the second time, it'll be a good break up because you'll know for sure that it wasn't the right guy.
It's so weird having someone tell me how this story ends; I almost feel like I took a shortcut and wikipedia`d the plot summary. I guess it's nice to know that no matter what happened, it would've ended up the same anyway, but still. What would you rather have: the time or the peace of mind?
I packed a little more when I got home; Mom organized a small pile of things I'd need.
I gave Tiffany the jacket (plus a gift receipt lol). (:
... They made a looot of cookies haha. We started watching the Pirates of the Caribbean movies, but Mom called me home about half an hour into the second one.
I was finishing up my packing and I just started crying a little. Lol, I'm such a mess. I'm moving in tomorrow, but I'm not even officially leaving Torrance until Sunday! It's not even that far, and I'm still coming back every weekend. I can't believe how emotional I'm getting over this. To be honest, I'm really terrified. I don't like change, I like security and stability; I get so comfortable with the place I'm in and the people I'm around. I'm terrified of starting over in a new place and having to make new friends.... Hah, I contradict myself so much. I've spent the whole year proclaiming that I love trying new things and meeting new people. I have so many conflicting emotions about this. On the one hand, I'm terrified to leave. On the other hand, I feel like I'll suffocate myself with my nostalgia if I don't. I'm still excited though, I think. I've said all my goodbyes except for one, and I don't think I'll be able to work up the nerve to do it.
This is a good thing though. I'm excited for the rest of my life; really, I am.
