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I woke up today, and I looked a goddamn mess lol.

Mom drove me over to Dr. Kuo's to get my TB test, since that Human Resources lady is incredibly persistent this year. It was hard cuhs I felt like I would cry at every little thing. I talked to Mom a little, and I felt better, so then I texted Steven and asked if he wanted to hang out.

By the way, they measured my height, and it came out 5'6".

After taking a nap (since we were both kind of tired apparently lol) Steven and I figured out some vague plans to hang out lol. Around this time Kent texted me and said he wanted to talk, since I guess I gave the impression that it wasn't all okay, and that we couldn't just go back to being friends just like that. I was just about to hang out with Steven though, so we agreed to meet around six-ish when I got back. Steven picked me up and we went over to Target since he wanted to look at posters for his dorm (we neither saw nor purchased any posters btw lol). We spent some time looking at lamps, and I thought this looked really cool. I would totally get something like this for UCLA, except it's $25, so forget that lol.

Me: Omg, it's the Pixar lamp! 8D
- two minutes later -
Steven: Omg it's the Pixar lamp!

We found a Street Fighter demo, and started playing that (which was how Frank eventually found us lol). We played a total of four times and none of us could beat the computer on medium hahah.

Toys section. (x

When you put them together THEY TALK TO EACH OTHER! Hahaha pretty clever; now you have to buy all of them!

After a while Steven was pretty hungry so we all jumped in his car and went to find food. I went into Chicken Dijon to get some pita bread, and apparently pita bread + garlic sauce is free! I was pretty psyched lol. We walked over to Rice Things and the guys got some food there. Frank and I went to grab a table while Steven ordered, and there was this pigeon just walking around in there LOL. Frank shooed it out hahaha.

Afterwards we went over to Steven's house to play his Wii despite his protests that his house was too dirty. It was pretty dirty actually, but I don't care hahah. I met his dad and brother, and his dad looks nothing like him lol; his brother, a little I guess. I pretty much got my ass handed to me in both Brawl & Mario Kart, but it's okay, cuhs Steven and I dominated the Battle mode with our red team hahah. Anyway, around this time Mom was calling me, all pissed cuhs it was already 6:20, and I was supposed to be home at six. Also, I checked my messages and Kent had already canceled our plans, probably to hang out with his friends again. Isn't it funny how he's still blowing me off even after we've broken up. He said we'd talk tonight.

Grandpa was treating us to dinner at Seafood Port (Mom didn't want to see Aunt Naimin and told us to just tell them she had lessons), so we took the van. Uncle was driving (I was sitting in the passenger's seat since I had my license), and needless to say we were all terrified, considering he doesn't even have his license yet lol. Even so, he wasn't half bad of a driver. Aunt Naimin was insufferable though. She made her thoughts very well known that she was terrified Uncle was driving, and then she kept asking me if I actually knew where this restaurant was, since I was giving him directions. And I was just like ... YES omg, you don't even know what you're talking about.

Again, I was quite proud of my Chinese, because I helped pick out 3 out of the 6 or so dishes we ordered. (8 It was all very delicious.

On the way home I drove, and granted I was pretty nervous since I hadn't driven Mom's van since she was teaching me how to drive way back when, and God knows I did not have a good experience at all. But it went extremely smoothly, and I couldn't have asked for more. Now if only Aunt Naimin would just shut up, sit back, and enjoy the goddamn ride. When I stayed on Artesia and drove right past Crenshaw, she was like wtf, where are you going?! And I was like "... Am I not dropping you off first?" And then when these two pedestrians were crossing the road, she was all pointing them out and telling me to be careful and. I was like OMG, I KNOW HOW TO DRIVE, OKAY.

After I got everyone home, I went over to Jen's house. Frank told me to keep myself busy so I keep my mind off it, so I guess that's what I'll try to do for a while. I was talking to Jen about it, and she totally did not make me feel better at all lol. She was like "Yeah well he probably broke up with you cuhs he has someone else." Which was like, wooow, I feel much better now. She started watching her show Covert Affairs after a while and called me over to watch with her, but I was talking to Breet (whom I haven't talked to in weeeeks).

You know, I really love that guy. He's so smart, and he always knows exactly what to say. I always feel better after talking to him. I haven't really been able to express my emotions or really put it into words, and after this I think I realized why I was so upset.

Kent let it happen. He stopped caring about the relationship and he stopped trying to make it work. It's hard for me to accept just because I still remember that one night when he said to me "Do you think this is just another relationship to me?" And for that to turn into this ... it's just hard. Kent never called me tonight, and it hurts to realize someone I trusted so much actually cares so utterly little about me. I've been desperately trying to grasp for someone that no longer exists, or maybe never did exist.

I was talking to Frank, and he's just such a great guy. He's never going to be as quotable as Breet, but you know what? I felt so much better talking to him. I didn't expect to hear him say "He's not worth it," or "Why should you care how he feels." And. It's just nice to know there are people that will always be there for me. I think I'm done crying.
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10:27pmBrett
and it's all the more unfortunate that it did end like this but you know what happened is his loss, and it doesn't make the way you felt any less significant for you

I believe that fully.
you have so much going for you Annie

10:31pmBrett

and truthfully, this sadness and whatever else you feel about this isn't all that much of a bad thing, because it reflects the truth of how good something in our life has been. and that feeling and memory of that good thing cannot be taken away. nor can the lessons from it.